Compulsion

You have compulsion. And obsession. You have that full feeling, and the other one. You have that empty feeling, that nothing feeling, that tired feeling--the one where you're exhausted, sometimes sad and mopey, the loneliness. You have the opposite of love, but not hate, but also anger that reaches out towards hate but can't get there. You have the opposite of energy - the lack of things, you want something you don't know what but you know you don't have it because you just know this isn't it. You have love. You have it. Somewhere.