I had a bad day. Not bad like the way everyone else means "bad," but bad like I can't say its day 21 anymore, or whatever day it is. Because it's not and maybe it wasn't even day 20 yesterday. Maybe I'm always in the middle of falling, or in the middle of getting up, never really walking the beam like everyone else, or vaulting it the way brave people do. I'm one of those people who can only balance a book on their head for 2 seconds, sometimes, when all is well. Now though, I need recalibration.
I feel lost and unbalanced. I'm the girl whose fallen off the beam onto the blue mat, and the hole hasn't opened up beneath her feet yet, but she can feel the floor's fragility. She can feel it gaping.
She'll ignore it for as long as she can.
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why must you walk on the beam? The ground is a perfectly wonderful place for most people.
ReplyDeletebecause where I am, there is no ground - just a deep dark pit. And I'd rather be on the beam than walking on the floor people think they see under me.
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